hello! when i went online today i suddenly had a wave of nostalgia pass over me and i decided to read through all my previous posts from the first to the present. i was such a sad, depressed soul in 2005! it was my first year in SRJC and i think school definately contributed to my pathetic state. however, it was also the year i met fab fab people and the few happy moments i had were mostly thanks to them :)

hey girls, remember this? i think it was taken during the first few weeks we entered SR. (at an airport toilet. hurhur)











that year was also the first year i ever had short hair. haha. i feel like cutting it short again.

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anyway, after today's lit identity lecture on fistful of colours, it got me wanting to know how singaporean i was so i asked my parents about it over dinner this evening. obviously, my dad couldn't help me much but i found out a lot from my mum.
my grandma's mum came over to singapore from boyan in search of a better life while still pregnant with my grandma. she worked here as a washer-woman i think. my great-grandad never followed so my great-grandma married another man here but apparently, he had a wife back in boyan and when she arrived in singapore he divorced my great-grandma leaving her to make a living for herself. the ironic thing is, they all still lived under the same roof! as for my grandad, he was of javanese decent but came here from johor and worked as a mechanic and after a few years, applied for singaporean citizenship. my mum never knew her parental grandparents so that stops there.

the sad thing is that only makes me about 3rd generation singaporean at most. i know this might sound stupid but i feel alien-ish when trying to relate to the characters in foc and am actually jealous i can't claim i descend from these singaporeans from around a century ago.

my dad told me that if it were any consolation, my having an english dad, a malay-singaporean mum and growing up in hong kong, makes me a great specimen of a result of globalisation. haha. ya. some consolation.

actually, i'm not too hung up over this. i liked hearing these stories BUT it's a pity my history can't be more colourful.

toodles!
lallie | 9:49 PM

okay, emo-ness aside...
it's time i updated to let non-SRJCians know i'm still alive.
HELLO!
it's so sad that i haven't seen you all in so long. the most that i got was about 1 hour with azimah on sat and of that about 5 minutes with sab? ha! & i haven't seen any ex-SRJCians at all (except dicky for about 6 seconds last mon i think) :( sitz!!!! go check your e-mail k?

so, school's taking over my life. it seems like the recent end-of-year holidays were but only a (really)distant memory. i only finish school at around 7 or 8 everyday except for thurs which is at 530. really really tired and i find it so hard finding time to study and do homework. i have a math lecture test this friday!(pray for me, fiq!) i can't complain too much cos some from other cca's have it worse than i do but the real problem here is i am really the worst person at juggling all these things. i don't even go online much anymore. haha.
i was thinking of meeting people on saturday but there's going to be a dance camp this fri/sat -_-
so so sorry! maybe i'll see ya'll on sunday if i'm not swimming in my homework. but i have to meet fiq for tuition though ;)

i was quite bummed last friday. sitz called me when i was about to finish dance to ask me to join her for dinner. even though i was kind of shagged, i wanted to see her so i agreed but then my mum called and told me my dad was going to pick me up and said i'm tired and should go home and rest. i appreciate my parents' concern but they just don't understand the whole missing and wanting to catch up with my friends thing. i guess cos they don't have friends. hurhur. okay. maybe not but they don't really put friends on the top of their priority list. so it's kind of frustrating when i say i'm going to meet my friends and they look at me disapprovingly cos i should be using my time more productively. oh well...

anyway, even though you guys don't hear from me i miss you very muchos. i think about ya'll whenever i see a 72 bus, sit at the canteen table next to the pillar, etc etc
apple crumble shall happen soon aight!
lovelovelove! (:
lallie | 8:20 PM

hello evil people who are relishing my going back to school while they can stay at home/work/whathaveyou. haha

it's only the 2nd day of school but i'm so exhausted. yeah. weird. i think it's mainly to do with the game i/c thingy but it's fun too. unfortch, there are AP freshmen who i CANNOT stand but they are few and far between so yay! oh, the homework's really piling up too! exciting, no? i'm already freakin scared for the a's. haha.

the first day wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. i was actually kinda excited cos when i reached school i immediately sent my darling (EX)retainees messages which oozed with a bit too much enthusiasm. haha (hello J2 people!)

apart from that, SR has a new principal ppl! wooo! i think most are really warming up too him cos
a)he doesn't insist on girls wearing long long skirts
b)NO BELT! i am serious! even the guys don't have to wear 'em! &
c)he's not mrs kok!
so far so good but it's still the early stages so who knows? in time, we might find that he's worse. muahahaha.

azi and i had pre-school jitters so we decided to meet up yesterday after the first day. so nice to see the girls(aznazsab) cos i haven't seen them in AGES. it was a avenue of de-stressing but i was so tired when i reached home. next de-stressing session shall be saturday where we shall celebrate the last few days of lyndon's freedom and then next week i'll get to see siti(waves)!

i need HELP with maths!

okay. this entry is sooo not properly structured. haha. stress la! :p
lallie | 9:12 PM