sigh. sighsighsigh.
i think i'm cursed. star-crossed maybe. why does this always happen to me? and always in this aspect of life.
all this silence. masked meanings and gestures. is this the way it's supposed to be? ideally it shouldn't be this way. if what we have were true, it shouldn't be this way.
but if it wasn't, would we be brave enough to handle it?

ah, the ironies of life. what we hate and want to change is what we may be afraid of. i write vaguely becuase i am afraid. and i know and feel that it is wrong to be so. yet i cannot stop myself. oh well.. *shrugs.

[cut][because now i do know that you do care (:]

frustrations. running through my veins like white blood cells, rushing to kill off the virus. okay i'm no bio student but it's the only thing that comes to mind about all this rubbish.

-

where did i go wrong? i lost a friend,
somewhere along in the bitterness.
and i would've stayed up with you all night,
had i known how to save a life.
-the fray



lallie | 9:49 PM