Wednesday was Death & the Maiden. Interesting but I hate hanging endings. Heh. Still, it was good. The sharing session was enlightening too. Lim Yu Beng is hot by the way. Haha. Or at least I think so. I'm weird, so what?
Anyhoo, past happenings this week...
Ermm.. Not much I guess. OOoh. Side track a bit.
I see you, babyShakin that ass, shakin that ass, shakin that assHee. I love to listen this song. It's so groovable even though it's kinda lame.
Ok ok back to topic. As I said, nothing much happened. For school I'm not doing too badly. Topped the class for math! Haha. Seriously, who would've seen that coming? Farah and Math don't go together. Physics wasn't too bad either. 64% was way higher than I expected. Hal wants to study Phys together some time. It's like so necessary. Who the hell knows what Mr Cox is talking about? The funny thing is I'm doing okay for the 'science' subjects but my Lit is so disappointing. And that sentence in itself is so wrong. Econs is okay. Love the subject hate the teacher. I don't know why she has to be so bitchy all the time. Down a chill pill, woman!
Ugh, enough about school. It's so mundane. I want to talk about loads of things but only one thing is haunting my thoughts. I think that what Fiq said to me was completely unfounded but hit close to home. Too close. I can honestly say I didn't want what happened to happen. But maybe he's right. I may never keep any of my friends. I can already feel lonliness engulfing me. But I can say that I really have come to love my friends made. So much so that I feel no need to make new ones in J1. I'm fine with everyone just not close. I know it's dumb and that I'm screwing up my social life in school for next year but I just don't have that urgency to make new friends.
I'm going to the garden to eat some wo-o-o-orms...
lallie | 11:37 PM
my current msn nick is
only fools wear their hearts on their sleeves -
& i'm a fooli betcha there are tons of people who feel the same way out there. there are the odd few who would protest since they keep everything in, scared to let the world see how vulnerable they are.
funnily, that's me too. there are some things i don't share but then there are the things that i do.
& wad makes things worse is that what i do let shine through is what can potentially be my downfall.
okay. you know that i know that you know i'm typing rubbish. haha. but think about how many times rubbish has proven true ;)
anyhoo. i'm lazy to type properly cos my small finger hurts pressing on the shift button tonight. weird but whatever. i woke up this morning to some racket at the end of my bed. i reluctantly lifted my eyelids a few mm and saw nothing. then i propped myself up by the elbows to see properly. my maind line of thinking was, there better not be a huge rat there. and then...
harris started rising slowly in this weird facial contortion and started climbing the ladder slowly (which i only just realised was there) towards my bedroom fan repeating the lines,
"Siti clean fan, Siti clean fan."HAHAHAHAHA. imagine waking up to that. so ya. the day started off quite well. unfortunately i let my head hit the pillow again and slept for another hour or so. i swear that sleep is and always will be my downfall.
yesterday, because of sleep i didn't wake up early enough to go watch MIQ. heh. actually iza and i did wake up on time but we kept falling asleep and waking up and falling asleep multiple times and kept track of each other's progress my sleepy sms'.
but it wasn't so bad cos if we had gone for miq we would have missed the syf central judging of display bands. tk got gold with honours btw. i'm so happy for them but (i know this is bad of me) i didn't think they left a great impression and are far off from past standards. but still, yay tk band!
nothing much after that. hanged out with the usual suspects as usual :)
i really needta study. even though mid yrs are in july. that's freakin long. i'm like dying for them to come soon. the sooner they come, the sooner i can prove myself.
-FIN-
to dance or not to dance?
lallie | 10:05 PM
Well, today isn't such a good day to say the least.
Got our PW results you see. It's not that I mind not getting a not so great grade. I just feel so disappointed and shitty cos I'm the only one in my group who got that grade. I mean I worked equally hard if not more with all those sleepless nights. It's just so unfair. So I went to the PE toilet and wanted to break down there and then but Riviera caught me and sent me into the hall for some talk regarding my weight. (Yup, I'm fat.) & then I made friends with this guy self-named Fookie. So nice la he.
"Are you supposed to be here?""Er.. Ya."(looks down at self)"You don't look like it leh.""HAHAHAHA."Well at least he made me feel better for just a little while. Then Bibs came in and asked the 3 tragic words, "Are you okay?" and i just started tearing and Fookie was kinda shocked but was chatting to me nicely. So then after that I finally made it to the toilet and sniffed and blubbered and cried, etc.
But I'm just happy that my friends are such sweet lovely things. They were there for me and tried to make me feel better. They're concern and comfort touched me so much that it added on to the tear-flow. Thanks all! (: & Iza, even though you weren't there you're message was just so sweet and touching I couldn't help the tears from falling either. Thanks a lot babe (:
Imran is classic.
"Are you all okay?" looks at me, "Is she okay?"I not pathetically."Do you need tissue? I have loads of tissue. Wet and dry also have""It's okay. I have some.""It's okay. Just take my tissue. My wet tissue is rose-smelling. Very nice! Just take them all."Hands me all the tissue."I was just in the library with you. Remember to channel all the frustration into your a levels k? Cheer up!"I nod pathetically again with my teary face but this time, with a smile.Hee. Such a faggot la but a very NICE faggot. (:
Anyway, I'm going to Bintan tomorrow. I'll try my best to have fun and all that and try not to think of bloody PW. Set aside some time to work on getting my 'hot bod' to lasso the guy of my dreams. Hurhur. Thanks to Fiq la. Haha.
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IZA FIXED MY LAYOUT! WEEEE! YOU ROCK BABE! (:
lallie | 8:45 PM