Everlasting Regret
Friday, October 28, 2005
Today I skipped school. Commemoration Day. Hurhur. But I heard I missed a few things such as; a certain future Singapore Idol Singing some Japanese song and
1000 miles and having the talent to strip on stage too. Woot. Hahaha. And also Mr Koh singing
Better Man. Now that I
do regret.
I was supposed to go to Fran's house for PW but somebody had to be 'sick' and thus, it was cancelled. So I ended up dressed with no where to go and I asked Bibs whether all the SR peeps were going anywhere and since they were going to Tamp I decided to join them. Haha. I think there's something wrong with us. We can play Uno or anything involving cards for hours on end.
Just being there with them fills me with so much joy yet so much pain. I remember at the beginning of the year we were all so happy that we would be taking the same subject combi and we were seperated nicely, 3 and 3. I realise I'm going to miss it a lot. Especially Izzah and Fatin Darlings. Haha. I won't have anybody to slack and suck at PE with anymore. Or anybody to hide behind the computer during lessons in the STINKY IT Rm5 with. All the lame and hyper high moments we sometimes had during lectures. Aarghh. When Bahar asked me what's wrong just now and mentioned that I looked as if I was lonely, I denied it but I guess he's right, I'm feeling the pangs of loneliness already. But I'm so proud of and happy for them for making it (:
LOVELOVE.
Let's all go watch the Legend of Zorro//
Legend of Zorroza some day! We shall drag Miss I-Don't-Watch-Movies with us too. Hee..
lallie | 9:29 PM
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Retaindom
It's confirmed. I'm being retained. But I'm okay.
I should be thankful for this oppurtunity to repeat year 1 and make full use of it. Hurhur. But seriously, I am kind of thankful. At least I'm not one of those 10 who got kicked out. I'm proud that I didn't cry cos that would be totally stupid of me but I did break down when I was hugging Bibs and Sitz cos they're most probably leaving to go to poly. I'm going to miss them SO MUCH. I am such an emotional nutcase.
Anyway, I am thinking of going to arts. Even my physics teacher agreed with me cos he's doing OP with us and said that I seem to be very strong in language. Haha. But that would be expected since I totally suck at physics. The question is what to take since there's a whole totally different system next year and also, how do I convince my parents. The reason I got into science in the first place was because of them. Bah. Now I keep thinking of Imran and his I-told-you-so's. Heh. Oh well, we'll see.
On the bright side, I DON'T HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL TILL THE END OF NOVEMBER. WEEEEEEEEEEE! Hahaha. But maybe I should just go for fun cos it'll be the last time I can actually say I'm part of 1s24. I'll miss my class a lot. Don't Forget Me! You'll still see me around and I'll try to sneak up on you people and shout HELLO. Haha and then you'll be glad I'm gone.
OOooh. Sugababes are on. Now someone tell me why I can't download a nice version of PushTheButton?
Toodles.
lallie | 11:30 AM
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Monday, October 24, 2005
So this is what it feels like.
Anyway, results out. Sucky as expected. Will definately not get promoted I think unless they do a thing like they did at SAJC where they promoted everybody even those who didn't make the mark. They get to be promoted conditionally. Funny that no one knows what they mean by conditional though.
PW is a stick up my ass. And there's been a switch of roles. Finally the written report has been handed up so I don't need to chase after my group members or pull out any of what's left of my hair out cos I'm not in charge of OP! Lalalalala. However, I'm slacking like crazy and I'm the last one to put in my part of the presentation. Hurhur. But I WILL do it. That's the difference.
So promos are over but it doesn't feel like it. School till 5 and blahblahs. Cikgu must really hate me. I haven't seen her in ages (or what seems like it) and Malay A's are in another, umm, 2 weeks? Yup, it seems that I can never unscrew myself. I will forever and ever be screwed and have a screwed up life.
Hari Raya is coming up soon. Got my bajus already. However, my room looks like hurricane Katrina just hit it. My mother is constantly nagging about it. But, I think she's given up already. This year might not be able to let people come to my house. Seriously. Haha. Even better though. I don't know why but I always feel so awkward when people come. Maybe its cos like the majority has never seen it before and I don't want them to judge my mum or whatever since she's the person who's mainly responsible for the way it looks. I love my home btw so there (:
Well, better get on with OP. I think I shall screw up the dry-run tomorrow for my group. Why the hell am I doing Intro and Conclusion when I'm not even the group leader? Haha. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY!
Oh God! Spare me! Jessica Simpson has just invaded the airwaves.
I am alone.
I should learn to play twister by myself too
lallie | 12:28 AM
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Rumbly in my Tumbly :D
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
I was about to give up today but I didn't. I'm so proud of myself. I shall not be stupid and dance again while puasa-ing.
Sometimes I don't really like fasting but on the other hand, there are so many blessings that come with it. I'm talking about food here no the usual cliche stuff like God's good will and stuff. The reason; I GET TO EAT YUMMY YUMMY FOOD!
WARNING : IT IS ADVISABLE TO READ THIS AFTER YOU HAVE BUKA-ED (:My mum gives in easier since we're fasting and all and we've eaten alot of my faves. Had Fish&Co for dinner on the first day.
Slurp! And then another day we went to Hawa and I had Beef Kuay Teow which I lurve with all my heart and soul (my mum can't understand how I can eat the exact same thing everytime we go there. hehe) and then there was the home cooking. Rendang by Nenek. Fish pie and spaghetti and and and so many more. Then my dad made his shepherd's pie recently too. I am living in food heaven. Is it any wonder why I never lose any weight during this period of time? Haha. I might have even gained some but I HOPEHOPEHOPE not :/
As for updates about school. NOTHING. Main thing is I have to concentrate on Malay and PW. Hurhur. My two
favourite subjects. Oh and we're supposed to get our parents to put their names down for some commemoration day for students. AS IF! I'm not even going to get promoted so what's the point. Muahahaha. My parents are starting to get freaked out by the care-free acceptance i have of my fate because it is not in my nature. I would usually get the hysterics from panicking. But this is more fun. I feel more relaxed.
lallie | 9:46 PM
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The End of Me
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Well, the promos are almost over. Last paper is tomorrow; ECONS P1 & P2 and what am I doing? Heh.
Physics sucked to the max. Should have practiced long-structured questions but even if I had wanted to take the easy way out and memo answers, I still would have sucked cos the stupid TYS only has some answers. Other questions they expect you to get it right. Its okay for those smart ones out there but not me. Blah.
I might even go to the extent of saying that maths was better than physics. Yes, I've gone mad. So now you know how screwed I am cos I have nothing that can push me up to JC2. Its all beyond prayers now. And I take full responsibility. Treated this like secondary school where you can still get promoted by the skin of your teeth. All play no work. Only REALLY started during the last 2 weeks. Tell me how is that possible?
I am now considering my options. I might do the Vin thing and go to MI where hopefully, they'll take me into their second year so I don't have to take the new syllabus and I still have more time to prepare for the A's. There's also the taking A's privately route which is worth considering. Sadly, poly is out cos it'll dry out my university funds and I WANT and NEED to go to university. So ya. Any other options?
I don't want to stay in SR if I retain cos I only find it bearable now because of the people. If I'm alone there without my friends I'd rather just drop out. Stupid I know. But still, I'm not into the adapting into a new crowd thing right now and there's also the humiliation. Heart over mind.
lallie | 11:15 AM
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Promo Update
Monday, October 03, 2005
Promos so far...
MalayWhy oh why didn't something like
tenggelam punca or
ular kepala dua come out for peribahasa? I can see the look on Cikgu's face now.
GPOkay I guess. But summary was crap. What's new anyway. Heh.
Econs P3HURHURHURHURHURHURHURHUR
Recite:
WORK FOR MCQ. WORK FOR MCQ. WORK FOR MCQ...Tomorrow's Mathematics. Please please let the things I've studied come out and no shit stuff like functions or curve sketching.
lallie | 8:51 PM
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