SighSighSigh. Like why? Why do I have to get so depressed. I wish I had no feelings then I wouldn't have to suffer. This totally sucks. I feel so invisible and non-existent. Ask me why and I'll say "I don't know". Seems like that's my favourite phrase now. Its annoying I know but I can't think. Nothing's clear.

Thought that I'd come back all hyped up from KL but I had to go see something that ruined my whole mood. It's something small. I don't know why it affected me so much. I guess cos I feel guilty & hurt at the same time. I feel so Kingshawy, people just suck. What I'd usually do is wait for the other person to cave in first, supposedly to show I'm stronger but I realise its stupid. Cos she'll definately not want to and it'll just be a never-ending story. I think maybe its stronger to make the first move. As the song goes, sorry seems to be the hardest word. Thing is I think I might cry. Aaargh. Why do I have to be so emotional.

Anyway, I'm super tired after dance today. Did handstands and a new street jazz routine. We all sweated like anything. Tomorrow, more handstands and cartwheels. I wonder if my arms can handle it. But at least I'm on of the few who can do a handstand on my own (: Finally, something to be proud of.

I think I'm ashamed of myself. Groans.

I think I'm drifting away; Please don't let me
lallie | 1:52 AM