I just went to see Engelbert Humperdink's concert. Oh man, I have no idea how to spell the name. Will edit later. Anyway, I went cos my mum was like really excited so I decided to accompany her. When I reached it was like full of senior people. I swear I was like the only teenager within a 10m radius. There were a few other young people. Emphasis on the 'few'. So, even though this Engelbert guy is like 69 years old, [ there were groupies at the end, comprising of old ladies! can you picture it? :D ] he was really entertaining and I enjoyed myself. The songs are also nice. I have to say that these kind of songs have lyrics that actually make sense. I'm glad my mum had a great time too. Its rare when she actually sees something that she really wants to watch. She's happy, I'm happy :)

Anyway, backtrack to earlier in the day when I had to pass the assless ass his wallet. Made me wait for like half an hour. As if I had nothing better to do. I was thinking angry thoughts thinking I would give him a piece of my mind but for some reason I can never be angry with him. Not only him but also my friends. It takes a lot of accumulated reasons to really anger me. I wonder where I get this patience from, certainly not from mum or dad. Haha. Back to the topic, as a result, I was late for our PW meeting. But of course, no matter how late I am I will never be later than Zhong. I'm kinda happy now that we're much futher ahead than what we started with. *heaves a sigh of relief.

Oh and after chatting with the guys I got to know of this really romantic plan. Awwwwww! Ask and I shall share ;)

I also forgot to mention that my darling com is not with me right now. I am using my brother's one with his BRAND NEW BROADBAND. Like WOW! Haha. He's so excited about it. Funny guy.

Kk. I NEED to sleep! More mugging to be done tomorrow!(Or should I say today? Heh.)
lallie | 4:14 PM

Haha. I realise I always put a song I'm thinking about/ listening to as my title of an entry. Well, usually anyways.

I realise I shouldn't wallow too much in self-pity when my other friends are suffering from something even worse. Wait, that sounds as if its an illness. I mean they have worse problems in life.

Anyways, Darling Fiza, I'm here for you, we all are :)

But I shall rant and say one thing, which is, I feeeeeelll so unwanted. I'm always the last mentioned for some reason. No point mentioning me at all is what I feel. Unless, the last mentioned is the most important? Snorts. Who am I kidding. But that's how I feel. Said. Done. Let's move on.

She sent me a message explaining how she felt and all. I don't know how to reply. I need to time to absorb and figure out what I want to say. I cannot paint a rose coloured picture. There will definately be things that will not be pleasing to the ear, or in this case, the eye. The thing is tact.

Oh well. Haha. He's being chased by this psycho girl. The thing that comes to me first is, the song Stalker by Goldfinger.

Oh oh oh, she's following me
Oh oh oh, she's out of her tree
Oh oh oh, she's off of her rocker
Oh oh oh, I wanna marry my stalker

Hahahahaha. Freaking funny. Don't think he'll wanna marry this 'stalker' though. Lalala. This is totally random.

Tomorrow I have PW. Hopefully I can get some mugging done witht the usual SRJC muggers. Like after so loooonnnnggg. I AM SO SCREWED FOR COMMON TESTS! God, save me!
lallie | 1:59 AM

Doesn't it just blow? To realise that you are slowly losing people you love deeply. With every moment that passes, my heart is cracking just a bit more. I'm scared I've already lost some.

I guess the student profiling thing was right after all.

Freak. I miss them like crazy.

I realise I haven't seen any loved friend for a long time. A week for school darlings. I don't dare to count the time that has passed since I've seen the rest. A week is already killer for me.

I'm sorry.
lallie | 3:41 PM

SighSighSigh. Like why? Why do I have to get so depressed. I wish I had no feelings then I wouldn't have to suffer. This totally sucks. I feel so invisible and non-existent. Ask me why and I'll say "I don't know". Seems like that's my favourite phrase now. Its annoying I know but I can't think. Nothing's clear.

Thought that I'd come back all hyped up from KL but I had to go see something that ruined my whole mood. It's something small. I don't know why it affected me so much. I guess cos I feel guilty & hurt at the same time. I feel so Kingshawy, people just suck. What I'd usually do is wait for the other person to cave in first, supposedly to show I'm stronger but I realise its stupid. Cos she'll definately not want to and it'll just be a never-ending story. I think maybe its stronger to make the first move. As the song goes, sorry seems to be the hardest word. Thing is I think I might cry. Aaargh. Why do I have to be so emotional.

Anyway, I'm super tired after dance today. Did handstands and a new street jazz routine. We all sweated like anything. Tomorrow, more handstands and cartwheels. I wonder if my arms can handle it. But at least I'm on of the few who can do a handstand on my own (: Finally, something to be proud of.

I think I'm ashamed of myself. Groans.

I think I'm drifting away; Please don't let me
lallie | 1:52 AM

I can't get that song out of my head. I still remember long ago when my family and me went to watch CATS in HK. I miss it. HK i mean.
Ice-skating, Water World & Ocean Park, Quarry Bay School, Our House & Garden, My Birthday Swing...
BUT... I'm happy here too so no regrets, just reminiscence :)

Anyhoo, another of my wants are soon to be striked out. Going to KL tomorrow! Woot. I'm so going to go crazy. Haha. Going with mum, bro, cousins, grandmama, aunties, etc. Oh whatever. Who cares who's going? What's important is that we're going! AAaaahhhhh!

I'm wondering whether I should pack some books. Common Tests start right after the holidays. Man, school sucks. BIG time.
Talking about hitting the books, went to study at the airport again today. What's up with that by the way? Most people when you say airport, you think HOLIDAY. Mention airport to us backward people, we think STUDY. Haha. Anyway, did math. Finally, log & ln make some sense to me. I know, I'm slow. Better late than never though.

Oh, and I'm such a basket. I overslept today so I didn't go to school. I wasn't scared about Math but more for PW. Oh man, my group is so screwed la. Oh no. I must be really worried cos its getting hard to swallow. *Breathe in, breathe out. HeeeeeHaaaaaHooooo. We seriously need help. Since Gan isn't being much help there MUST be somebody else.

Okay okay. I shall not think about this right now. I am going to relax and enjoy my upcoming holiday.

See you people! Have fun without me! (But not too much!) :)

*Why Can't People Learn To Say What They Mean & Mean What They Say?*
lallie | 2:08 AM

Okay. I've finally got the link thing down. Haha. It was easy and I thought it would be some difficult thingy to do. I always get worked up for no reason.

So today we studied at Changi Airport again. Met the rest at Macs after dance cos they got kicked out of the canteen.
They all tried psycho-ing me by telling me they lost my MP3, My Baby! I obviously knew they were kidding but its fun how I psycho-ed them back my storming off to the toilet. Heh. So we strike each other out, right? No hard feelings.

Anyway, I did math. Its amazing to re-read what junk I write in my notebook during lecture when I can't help dozing off. Its embarassing. We also started berangan-ing about going to KL after our promos together-gether so we can shop til we drop together-gether. Cool idea. I want! BUT... I can foresee complications. If not with me then with the rest. Money, Parents, the like. But who knows? It COULD happen.

Tomorrow there's 3 periods of Math. How lovely. And then, there's PW with Gan. How even lovelier. Let me just pray I don't die.

Toodles.
lallie | 3:57 PM

Yo!

I'm shagged! Like totally. No, not that kind of shagged LA! Tired, pooped, exhausted. But in a good way. Went swimming at JESC. Jurong East Swimming Complex. Ooh. So fantabulously cheap. $0.80. Woot! That's something for me to feel good about considering that I spent a bomb on Saturday with a $38 manicure & a $29 tankini (this was quite a deal, price dropped from sixty something. heee!)

Talking about Saturday, it was Drama's Masquerade Night. Most of the alumni went back. Can I just say that the new Sec 1s are so unbelievably childish it almost killed me. Chasing balloons in the assembly plaza. With their dresses on. MY GOD! Oh whatever. I'm just happy its not me who has to take care of them. I'm FREE! Haha.. But I miss drama-ing :(
Went there with Ams and Fiza after the manicure & shopping. Miss Sabrina Tan joined us after coming back from the ZOO for FREE ice cream! Oh, the cheapo! ;) But then, it was Ben&Jerry's so i understand baybehh!
There was a whole lot of hugs and camera-whoreing but me being smart (as per normal) did not bring my bimbo cam. Haha. Relied on Sabbie's cam & my handphone. Pathetic, I know.
Ooh! And the DIRTY DANCING! Haha. I swear we're the worst seniors ever. Explaing and demonstrating how to grind. & Carl wanted to try but we ran away. Kwakwakwa. That guy will forever be Mr Horny. I was teaching them how to ripple and shake it which helps, in Sab's words, to make the guy's noses bleed. Haha. Fun la.
Then me and Ams slept over at Fiza's house. FUNFUNFUN. Must do it again! And I wore PJs. Haha. I'm telling you its been ages since I last wore one. It was so nice to just slack around in them. They were silk! Oh the bliss!

Anyway, I'd like to elaborate on today but I shall not because I did a sinful thing which I shall not say because I do not want the wrong people reading this and tattling on me. Heh. This sounds so primary school.

Oh well, I NEED sleep! Zzzzzzz....
lallie | 3:36 PM

Yoohoo! I am backkk!
So what do you think of my darling new layout? Aaah! I love it to bits! Its just so cute & innocent! LOVELOVELOVE. Sigh.
This thing is still under construction though as you can see from the link1,link2, etc. & my about me is pathetic too. I can't think of what to write. I feel like putting up a wishlist! Cos there's LOADS of things I want BUT I have NO MONEY! Never mind, in good time, in good time :)

ANYWAY,
Today was Daddy's birthday! I bought him a chocolate fudge cake from Prima Deli. I got a DISCOUNT too! Woot! The auntie doesn't know much though. She even asked me to help her calculate what the price would be after 10% discount. Bought mini cakes for Siti & Izzah darling too. The KAYPOS! Hehs. But I still love them x) OOOhh! And I got to use my FUNKY DUNKY DEBIT CARD for the first time! Haha. Cool! Signing my name on a receipt is FUN!
Got back home had a nice, nice dinner. French onion soup, Fish Pie, & of course THE CAKE! Daddy loved it! HAPPYHAPPY! When everyone's happy I'm happy.

I wanna bitch so badly BUT I shall not ruin this happy happy mood! Toodles! :)))
lallie | 2:29 AM

Oooh! I have a BLOG! An actual blog! Not a LIVEJOURNAL! Hahaha. I finally feel like I belong! Weeee! I'm so lame. I wonder if this thing is idiot-proof for people like me. I'm such an un-techy person. I wanna turn IT-SAVVY. Kkk. I shall explore this thing. Updates later!

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lallie | 1:55 AM